Today, a cell phone app showed me how unhealthy my marriage was for me..

I checked my resting heart rate first thing this morning. It was 56 beats per minute. Later, I was listening to some songs in my iTunes account, and up comes a voice recording. From that fateful night in December 2013 when my husband trapped me at the table for almost an hour and a half, berating and condescending to me.

On a whim, I checked my heart rate again, and it was almost 30 beats per minute faster.

And my O2 stats were 4% lower. He was literally killing me.

Not softly.

Not with his hands.

With his words.